Quiet times

I have had a quiet time work wise this week. I am currently back up north, visiting the family and having a break from LANDAN. My dubious issue which I'm not allowed to talk about has also quelled, so for now I am relaxed. But not properly relaxed...Buddha relaxed...relaxed alertness, I think that's called. I have a few new job opportunities next week, so that should be interesting, all drama related in one form or another.

Although, this last week has been quiet for me, it's also been a little stressful. My flatmate got fired, this week, which of course was not ideal. However it happened, so we're all dealing with the ramifications of that. Essex doesn't take any prisoners I have come to realise. It sniffs out a phoney a mile off. In the long term this is probably a good thing. You shouldn't be doing a job that you have no interest or long term need to be in. However, it seems somewhat unjustified to be fired for just not being their type of a person. I think all three of us in the flat need to focus our attention on more London based ventures. London is more of a melting pot. Essex is like being in a small town.

These things are sent to try us I suppose...

Love and good wishes to all!

Nora Ephron

"You should eat delicious things while you can still eat them, go to wonderful places while you still can ... and not have evenings where you say to yourself, 'What am I doing here? Why am I here? I am bored witless!'"

Never a truer word has been spoken, by one of my biggest Idols Nora Ephron, whom died yesterday. I love her films they are funny, clever and interesting and I have watched a lot of them a lot of times. I will greatly miss her talent, witticisms and her unique take on life.

Rest in peace Nora.

If you're blue and don't know where to go to...

Well, I have had a bit of an odd few days. I finished the corporate acting project on Friday, and that was really fun. Worked with some lovely people, and it felt really nice to be around actors again. I then had a curve ball thrown at me on Friday, unfortunately I can't disclose the details here, however it has sent my head spinning. I know that life is unpredictable and that you never truly know what people think about you, but I like to think I have a sense for when something is brewing...however, not this time. This was so off my radar, that I literally had to be hit over the head with it to realise what was going on. Anyway, as I am still in the mist of the whole situ and I have been asked specifically not to say anything, but Lord only knows where this one will end up. I am confused in the extreme.

On a separate note, me an my housemates went out on Friday and ended up at the Ritz, pah, as you do. I had a lovely (And I mean lovely, I'm not just saying this because it was the Ritz) Rossini...amazeballs. It was a really good night, I love nights like that, that are a bit random but brilliant. The night after we went to the cinema and saw Rock of Ages, that was pretty good too.

So it has been a nice if not somewhat odd few days...

And a bit of music for you below:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFabjc6mFk4

The latest

Okay, so when I left off last I was hopelessley unemployed, I shall now update you briefly on the goings on since. I went to office angels on the monday after being fired, wondered round Romford feeling totally hopeless and like I would have to move back to North Yorkshire and live out my days there. Got back to my flat and out of desperation applied for a job at a call centre. Next day, got the job at the call centre ( not a massive achievement, they pretty much employ anything that can convert oxygen into carbon dioxide) then got a call from office angels, offering me some weekend work, temping. Wednesday got another call from office angels for temping that day...should have done it...but instead decided to go and fill out paperwork for call centre job.  Thursday got another call from office angels about temping for that day, but was already on my way for training at the call centre. Did the first day of training for the call centre, went to the rain forest cafe for tea (amazeballs) decided not to go back for second day of training at call centre and just trust that office angels would find me stuff.

At the weekend, did the temping job. Monday went for an audition with the Young Shakespeare Company, Tuesday got a call from office angels to temp at a fishing distribution place, did that.  Today did a drama workshop, tomorrow will be doing corporate acting again, Saturday i'm off, Sunday will be helping out with the drama workshop's show.

Sorry if this makes literally no sense but I have been a bit manic of late....and sooo much happier. Temping is easy and literally no pressure. Which has left me with time to think about my actual career and on Wednesday I went to the job center to ask for some info about starting up my own business.

So things have been much better of late...phew...I feel much more like more old self...and I haven't been bursting into tears every two seconds which is always a plus.

The sun has got his hat on!!

Day One

It has been day one of a serious job hunt before the rent must be paid and I seriously run out of money. This morning I joined a recruitment company for temp work in an office. wandered around Romford looking for vacancies. Applied at a Bakery, tried to apply for La senza but their stupid website wasn't working, and then came home. Feeling a bit rubbish to say the least. I then, out of desperation, this evening applied to three call centres. I will have to wait till tomorrow to see where that leads. But hey ho.

The problem I am having and this ties very much into being an actor is that I need flexibility in a job. I need for it to be okay if I only do one day a week, but 5 days another a different week. I don't know where my next job is coming from. And the acting stuff I get actually pays a lot better than any of the other jobs that I do on a day to day basis. And that's not just a little bit more, it's a lot more. However, the jobs that are like this tend to be the really bad jobs. However, if it gets me out a tight spot, it might not be too much of a bad thing.

Oh lord, I do get myself in to some predicaments. My other problem is that I want to leave my weekends free, so I can visit up north, and you know go out and shizzle. This pretty much rules out any part time work.

What to do ey?

I got fired

Well you know that riduclously hideous job that I had been moaning about, well after three days of worrying about my weekend shift and what possibly the mental manager could say to me that would be totally out of line and massively patronising. I painted a smile on my face, went in for my 6-11 shift. Got there for ten to six and by ten past six I was already back in my flat, getting drunk with my flat mates.So what happened in the space of those twenty minutes was this. I went in, said hello to people, realised there was loads of staff on, had a chat with one of the guys that works there in the staff room, put my apron on. Somebody else mentioned how many people they had on tonight, realised I only had two tables in my section....awkward. Went to check my section, got tapped on the shoulder by afore mentioned mental manager, and assistant manager...or whatever his job is...nobody has ever actually clarified. The manager seemed uncharacteristically nervous as did, assistant manger...or whatever he is. The manager knocked over a glass while sitting down, I made a joke of it...then she began, (at this point the assistant manager, didn't look at either of us and just started writing down everything that was said)
her: you know that you are on a probationary period)...
me: yes?..
her: well you have failed the probation...
me: (in my head) thank fuck for that
her: it's nothing you did, I actually really like you...it's just we feel that you don't quite match up to (insert restaurant name here) style.
me:( again in my head)I'll bloody say.
Her: you don't have to work tonight and I will pay you for tonight and tomorrow, and for any other shifts over the next week.
Me:( In head) score
Her: (she started wittering, didn't really get the next bit).
Me: (out loud this time)That's okay to be honest I have another job to go to in September anyway, so I would have had to leave in a few weeks anyway (this is half true) plus you're right I don't fit in with (insert restaurant name here) I think other people are looking for a career here, I'm not.

Then I just had to sign what ever the assistant manager had managed to write down, and off I went. With my head held high and all dignity in tact. It was, if there was a good way to leave that place, the best way I could have left because I think other wise it would have got messy. Plus I hated it, I mean really hated it...and I get paid for a week where I don't even have to work there. Brilliant.

The only problem now is finding a job, that accommodates acting...hmmm...I'm going to try a temping agency next, who knows it might work.

In other news my parents visited this week, I think I'll post about this in a separate blog. However, the reason I mentioned now, is that they brought down my hamster cage...so today me and my flatmates are going to purchase a hamster...hehe...

And to end in the style of the apprentice...points finger..."you're fired".

Just because you find that life's not fair it doesn't mean that you just have to grin and bear it, if you always take it on the chin and wear it, nothing will change

I went to see Matilda the musical last night, and it was fantastic. A must see if ever there was one, and this is the lyrics from a really lovely song called "when i grow up"....very timely for me at the moment.

When I grow up, I will be tall enough to reach the branches that I need to reach to climb trees you get to climb when you're grown up

And when I grow up, I will be smart enough to answer all the questions that you need to know the answers to before you're grown up.


And when I grow up, I will eat sweets everyday on the way to work and I will go to bed late every night

And I will wake up when the sun comes up and I will watch cartoons until my eyes go square and I won't care cause I'll be all grown up

When I grow up

When I grow up, When I grow up, (When I grow up)

I will be strong enough to carry all the heavy things you have to hold around with you when you're a grown up.

And when I grow up, when I grow up (when I grow up), I will be brave enough to fight
creatures that you have to fight beneath the bed each night to be a grown up

When I grow up (When I grow up) I will have treats everyday and I'll play with things that Mom pretends that Moms don't think are fun

And I will wake up (I will wake up) when the sun comes up and I will spend all day just lying in the sun and I won't burn cause I'll be all grown up

When I grow up

When I grow up I will be brave enough to fight the creatures that you have to fight beneath the bed to be a grown up

When I grow up

Just because you find that life's not fair it doesn't mean that you just have to grin and bear it, if you always take it on the chin and wear it, nothing will change

When I grow up

Just because I find myself in this story, it doesn't mean that everything is written for me, if I think the ending is fixed or ready I might as well be saying I think that it's ok, and that's not right!

Still on a hunt

Soooo I'm still looking for a better job than the one I have at the moment and as soon as I find it I should have free reign to vent my true feelings about the whole sorry saga. I am slightly better emotionally this week. Although on Saturday night I went out and got very drunk, didn't get home till 8:30am and then had to be at work for 5 that evening. so mixing a shit job with a horrid hangover wasn't good, but you know...I'm young...

This week, I have a couple of shifts at afore mentioned crap shack then I am working at the London Film Academy helping students to workshop their scripts. Then my parents visit for a couple of days, and we're going to see 'Matilda' yayness, and then I'm back at the crap shack.

Really, I just want some acting work...and I know it's a bit rich to say that because both last week, and this week I have had actual paid acting work but I want to do something like a play, I miss doing proper good acting...meh...plus it would save me from the drudgery of having to do crappy jobs just to make ends meat.

anywhoo...back to the grindstone

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