Romaversary

Sooooo here I am a year on. Still alive, still penniless, still single...so what have I learnt over the last year here in Romford....well...

1) Getting a temporary flexible job is not easy.In the last year I have worked in:
A call centre,
Zizzi's,
A Vauxhall garage,
Scania office,
Regus Reception,
Fox Reception,
Hearing specialist reception,
Drama workshops in schools,
Nurseries.

Most of these experiences have been alright and in some instances even interesting, there was one horrendous experience and that was at Zizzi's. The manager was insane and I got fired for quote 'Not being the Zizzi style' I have never been more pleased to get fired from anywhere in my entire life.

2) I will never have any money...I chose to be an actor what do I expect?

3) I like the flat we chose, it's not perfect but it's fine...and that counts for a lot. It's in a good location, the rent is manageable...most of the time...and it's been a place of solace when most needed.

4) I know some amazing people, who always make the agony of being an actor worthwhile they are troupers and make me feel like London is my home.

5) I LOVE LONDON it is a constant surprise, I love being able to go somewhere different every time I go out, and find places that as soon as I walk in to them I feel like a little piece of me has been here all along.

6) Acting is CONSTANTLY hard, but also CONSTANTLY rewarding, I feel the most me when I get to do it, and that's why I persevere.

7) Dating is a long and winding road. I'm sure at some point I will meet somebody who I get the 'YES YOU' feeling for, but for now I am still waiting...ugh.

8) I must always trust my gut instincts...they are really good, and know me, more than even I do sometimes.

9) I must eat properly, I get Ill when I don't.

10) Being Ill is AWFUL...

11) I have time to do the things I want to in life...but that doesn't mean I should procrastinate...I am young, but I will get OLD and procrastination IS the thief of time.

12) Other people's success's do not mean that I will not be successful. Be happy for people and do not judge yourself by their standards, we have our own little path, we must follow that.

13)The more you put in the more you get out.

14) Relationships alter with time, sometimes your friends, sometimes your not, we all need space, and a place to breath, it is essential you let yourself and others do this.

15) My family are but a train ride away and once a month that train ride is made, and it makes me stronger, thank goodness for their support.

16) I have vision and talent, but I must also put in the effort to make it work, no one can pop in my head and so this for me.

17) Nothing lasts forever.

18) Always own a pet, they if nothing else give you purpose...thanks Bubble.

19) Work hard, but also take breaks...you deserve it.

20) Allow yourself to feel....feel happy, feel sad, feel scared, feel appreciated, feel alive...

AND NEVER EVER STOP BELIEVING.

Here's to another year...

standing still on the left side of the escalator

When I'm not in London and I like to stand still on the left side of the escalator, partly cos it makes me feel rebellious but also because in London I am busy, I work 12 hour days, my weekends are full of applying for acting work, doing comedy stuff, catching up with friends, cleaning up and managing my accounts. This week I was back in London on Monday after an Easter break up north, and that night I went to see Helen Mirren in 'The Audience' soooo good, I have been a huge Mirren fan since my early teens, so I bought myself a ticket to see her live as a treat to myself. On Thursday I went up to Lincoln for an audition, for an open air summer tour, and once I had finished that, I had a few hours in Lincoln to kill before my train back to London. I love London, I do, but it is so fast paced and as I have joined that pace I sometimes forget just to browse. Not just browse shops but browse life, watch people, saunter around shops, listen to accents, to feel life. It has nearly been a year since I moved down here, and there will be a full blog to review that year, But the last year has been somewhat hectic, and sometimes it's nice to stop and just remind myself who I am, how I got here, and what that means.