Hello,
In my latest lovefilm delivery I received the film 'Friends With Money', lovely film and very relatable in lots of ways. As I liked it so much I decided to watch the special features in which the writer/director posed a question that we ask of ourselves at some points in our life 'Are we wearing the right shoes?'. This hit home with me. I have recently been on holiday and this is always a time for me to recollect my thoughts, away from the humdrum of the city and the constant worrying about money/friends/life/work/myself. This coupled with the fact that on two separate occasions this week I have had people making comments about my life which I have been totally unable to defend. Mainly because it would take an age to describe why I am currently in the position that I am in, and to be honest it wasn't worth it. They weren’t friends, they were just people I encountered, one at work and one at an audition. So really it was better just to let these comments go. It is a lesson though, in not judging people just by a piece of paper or the title that their current job holds. You don't know what has drawn that specific person into these circumstances and to assume that you do, is really just arrogance on your part. However getting back to how this affects me, I am slowly coming to terms with the fact it is possibly a rite of passage that you have to go through a time in your life where you feel a bit lost, and like you don't really know what you're doing as it makes you realise that life is not a straight line from school through to work to relationships to children to death etc...It is actually a rather squiggly one, probably not even one line maybe two or three or more, interconnecting making you confused and a bit disorientated. But what I have realised this week is that really I’m not the only one who hasn't got a clue what's happened to their life, there's millions of us probably right at this moment lost in the wilderness of life going UMM...and everybody else has either already had there moment of lostness or is probably heading for it. So to answer the question 'Am I wearing the right shoes?' the answer is no probably not, but I know somewhere out there, there is a bloody perfect pair just waiting for me to find them.
