I have for a very long time had the issue of crying in public. Yesterday carried on this trend. I have spoken before about not being able to hide feelings that are so big and real. However, yesterdays tears formed from a very different place, I was acting, in a film, and yesterdays scene was being attacked by a much older man. Now I hadn't really thought of myself as much of a method actor before yesterday, but after filming that scene all day it had really affected me. Of course I knew that it wasn't real but what was happening was my body was reacting to the physicality of the scene, to the point where I could only film the actual attack twice, as I just couldn't cope with any more times. I have never felt that vulnerable or out of control before and it was awful. Thank the lord it's never happened to me in real life I'm not sure I would ever cope with that.
But to get back to the restaurant situation my flatmates tried to take me out for a meal to cheer me up. It didn't work and I had to leave quickly and in tears. Plus the doorman was particularly lewd on the way in which obviously didn't help the situation.
Plus, I'm coming down with a cold....
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