Cosmos

I hate it when things that feel so very right turn out to be quite wrong and underwhelming. There are some things that we want so badly the fabrication of a reality becomes more real than the actual thing. There are some things that no matter how much we study, how much we think we know, how much effort we put in, or how much money we pay, they are simply in the lap of the gods. They are a feeling shared and that can not be created, it is already in exisistence in the cosmos. You can only believe that it will come...and god i hope it comes.

And on

Hellooo,

There seems to be a lot of illness around at the moment. I myself have been rather Ill for the last two and a half weeks. I'm on anti-biotics now, so hopefully they should help me kick the bug, but it's been quite bad. I took two days off work this week and of the other three days that i was in, on two of those days i got sent home early, meh, never mind. Hopefully i will get better soon and my energy will return.

In other news my Dad has booked a holiday for June. Two weeks in Menorca (Hallelujah) so that is something to look forward too. Also the summer acting jobs have started appearing so hopefully that will lead to something good.

xxx

Fucking life fail

Well, I have not had an audition for over two weeks, and even that audition was for a job doing Kids parties so i don't exactly think that counts. It's beginning to make me quite angry, especially as in the meantime I have found myself working in a nursery which is beginning to feel like a massive waste of time. NEED ACTING WORK. and failing that something that is vaguely related to acting and pays well. Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit...eegh...

In other news I am a hundred pounds overdrawn on my bank account, which means I am probably facing a massive bank charge, but I'm too scared to look at what the actual damage is, so I'm being a bit of an ostrich till i next get paid with that one.

I'm still single, although i have a couple of options on the horizon, which is new for me. Although not enough to get very excited.

Writing sketches is not going well, as i have no idea how to actually go about writing...i have tried just writing but it's not coming out right...although writing is rewriting (apparently) so maybe this will come with time.

And now it is half ten, so i should go to sleep, so that i can get up at 6 to go and do something that i don't want to do all day, in order to make not quite enough  money to live on. Go me. Fucking life fail.