To Know

To know what you deserve in life is actually an incredibly positive tool. It can also leave you feeling very raw and misunderstood in the process. However I think in the long run it saves you a tremendous amount of pain. I have spoken before of not being of able to do anything where my gut feeling tells me it is wrong, even though sometimes I want it to be right. I had a thought last night  which was that what I really want out my life at the moment is to feel settled. I have spent the last few years not feeling very settled at all, with so much up in the air and I am ready now to work on feeling settled. However being ready for this feeling and actually feeling it is two entirely separate things. But maybe just acknowledging that's what I want is the first step in making it happen.

But, I know that I deserve somebody who likes me just the way I am, I deserve somebody who makes the effort and I deserve not to made to feel like crap, whether they meant to or not. And that is what I know.

Summer lovin

Hello,

Been a bit distant from here. This summer has taken a bit of a somersault for me. I have been dating 'very exciting' I hear you cry. And yes it was, till this weekend when the "I don't think this is developing" conversation happened, and left me...well somewhat devastated. Humph, never mind onwards and upwards, so what has a summer of dating taught me:

Well,
1) It's nice to be wined and dined
2) You can meet someone online that is not totally ridiculous
3) If the person you are dating mentions moving to another country, it's probably not going to work out.

So there we go. On the acting front I actually have some auditions coming up, which is nice and a very good distraction. whoop. And I will finish my play soon.

toodles.