To know what you deserve in life is actually an incredibly positive tool. It can also leave you feeling very raw and misunderstood in the process. However I think in the long run it saves you a tremendous amount of pain. I have spoken before of not being of able to do anything where my gut feeling tells me it is wrong, even though sometimes I want it to be right. I had a thought last night which was that what I really want out my life at the moment is to feel settled. I have spent the last few years not feeling very settled at all, with so much up in the air and I am ready now to work on feeling settled. However being ready for this feeling and actually feeling it is two entirely separate things. But maybe just acknowledging that's what I want is the first step in making it happen.
But, I know that I deserve somebody who likes me just the way I am, I deserve somebody who makes the effort and I deserve not to made to feel like crap, whether they meant to or not. And that is what I know.
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