and another piece of this pesky jigsaw

Just been told I can put down the deposit on the flat on MONDAY. YES. Hoorah...oo I do make life hard for myself...but every now and then it does seem bloody worth it....and my dad has paid the security deposit for me...what a chap! yes, yes, yes...Just felt the need to share...I can't do it on facebook yet...cos till it has all gone through properly, it feels a bit premature to celebrate especially on facebook. Anyway, I can say it here....la..la..la...la...

Tlaa

Found another piece to the add to the jigsaw

Soo this week has been an interesting little week. ( my weeks end mid-week due to my weird working hours). I have got some more corporate acting work, with the company that I worked with before. Which is good, I don't know exactly what they're paying yet, but it's always a lot better than what I get from other jobs. Also, it will give me something to do while I am in London. Which although we are still waiting for all the paperwork to go through is looking more and more as though it is actually going to happen.

I am really pleased for one of future housemates, she got on to her P.G.C.E course that she had applied for down in London, so that will give her something to do aswell. I still can't quite celebrate everything because, as per, it's all still up in the air, but hey ho. Nothing is ever that straight forward is it?

Onwards we go.

Good days...

I had a lovely audition today...really nice people who were organised and passionate about the work. And I wasn't totally terrible. Unfortuantley when it goes this well it usually means the answer will be "no thank you" but anyway, It's nice to be around actors and good work, even if it's only for a little bit of time.

The Flat shizzle is still at the getting references stage. We are currently getting guarantors organised. I don't know, It's been a very stressy time in deed, not to mention expensive. Bang goes the whole not being in my overdraft thing. Never mind, hopefully when this is all sorted I can begin to concentrate on getting a job that pays me something near to what would be comfortable to live on. Plus, I can get work that isn't sooo temporary and rubbish.

Trok lom

TenterHooks

Oh My God. I hate leaving things up to other people. They don't do things properly, take ages to get back to me....I just want a flat...I promise I'll pay the rent....Jesus Christ...just let me give you a deposit. ahhh. Sooo annoying. At the moment the estate agent has the Nazi of all referencing services getting information from my employers as to how much I earn. I'm like I can save you a job, I don't earn the amount you require so let me just get some guarantor forms so that we can get it all done and sort out a move in date. I can't so anything at the moment. there's no point in me sorting out any work down there till the flat is sorted, and I've already given notice to my jobs up here. what am I going to do if this doesn't work out. bloody hell.....I'm trying to keep calm...honestly...I just want it done and sorted. FFS.

And I can't concentrate on learning lines for the audition I am meant to be doing on sat. blah...I need a holiday from my own head...

Yours truly...

How many chickens then?

Well, it has been a very busy, stressy, exciting time. We found a flat, it's incredible, if I could have imagined the perfect flat this would be it. It's modern, not too big or small, nice bathroom, really nice kitchen. And the location is immense, it's on a retail park, there's a cinema, bowling alley, loads of restaurants, shops, Big supermarkets and the piece de resistance it's got a Costa right across from my apartment. oo and it's a four minute walk to the station, and we are about 20 mins away from the centre of London. I'm soo excited. We just have to get all the paperwork done and it's ours. I can't really relax about it though till it's all gone through and the keys are in my hand. I suppose it's a waiting game now though.

In acting news, I have an audition on sat, which I must start preparing for. Also my friend from drama school, who has an agent, contacted me to let me know they have an opening in their books for my casting. I haven't yet replied though, I've been far too distracted.

Oh god please let this all work out!!

And er...never mind about the chickens...

"It'll all be alright in the end...and if it's not...well then it's not yet the end"

"It'll all be alright in the end...and if it's not...well then it's not yet the end" ( The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel).
Isn't that a brilliant statement?
I've had one of those weeks this week. You know the ones where reality comes crashing in and makes the dream look all weak and tired. Me and the two people that I am moving to London with, have started trying to arrange viewings on flats in London, this has not been easy. We managed to book six viewings and out of those six, two have already cancelled. So we are down to four...grr...topped of with the fact that none of the flats are really in the right area, and actually don't look that great, has been conspiring to thoroughly wind me up. Anyway deep breaths. Next week will be the biggest test as this is when we actually go down to London, with the aim to find a flat. Wish us luck.

Anywhoo, I went to see 'The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel' last night with my mum, it was nice. Dev Patel owns a hotel that he advertises to the "Elderly & Beautiful". I think that's great. I've always had quite an odd fascination with age. Ever since being really young I could imagine myself as an older even elderly person. My favourite actors and actresses are always older people, mainly in the over 60's section. One of my guilty pleasures is going to the cinema on my own, especially if I have a day off mid week, and seeing something that is targeted at an older generation, and I'm very often the only twenty something in the entire cinema. It's kind of my thing, one of my secret things.  Anyway, getting back to the film, I loved it's sentiment. Life often feels as though, it has an end point when in truth it doesn't, it carries on through the highs and lows, and you know what... it will all be alright in the end, the trick is knowing where the end is.

The end.

The Bench Mark

I have this thing where regardless of how well I am doing or the achievements I have made, I think that there is always somebody doing it better. In truth this is probably the case. But this weekend was a bit of an eye opener for me. I was in London, filming. and when I wasn't filming I had the time to catch up with a few friends, which was lovely. However, I was surprised by how much things hadn't changed for them. Being away from them, as close readers of my blog will know has not been easy for me. I think in one of my many moany blogs about not being in London, I said that I felt like everybody else was at a party that I had been invited to, but couldn't go...I think in reality it might have been a case of the grass is always greener. In truth the acting thing has actually gone quite well for me. I am certainly not doing any worse than anybody else. Also the space and distance away from London, has given me a perspective on my life and career that I never had before. I have built myself a base career, something that can earn me money when the acting is a bit slow. Which is really important. I have also become quite savvy about the business, I'm glad I haven't just signed with the first agent that came along...it's not worth it...truth is you either have a good agent or no agent at all. There is no point in having a middle of the road agent, they will hold you back. I have built up experince in both acting and teaching, that I'm not sure I would have got in London, and I have grounded myself.

There is a lot I want to do now. When I do move back, and most of it is my own work. Stuff I can be control of. I even think I have a slight plan, as to how to start moving with it. This time at home has been really worthwhile, and in truth, I haven't missed out on that much at all in London. And maybe I should stop imagining that everybody is doing better than I am, it's not the case.

Taa Rah.