I have this thing where regardless of how well I am doing or the achievements I have made, I think that there is always somebody doing it better. In truth this is probably the case. But this weekend was a bit of an eye opener for me. I was in London, filming. and when I wasn't filming I had the time to catch up with a few friends, which was lovely. However, I was surprised by how much things hadn't changed for them. Being away from them, as close readers of my blog will know has not been easy for me. I think in one of my many moany blogs about not being in London, I said that I felt like everybody else was at a party that I had been invited to, but couldn't go...I think in reality it might have been a case of the grass is always greener. In truth the acting thing has actually gone quite well for me. I am certainly not doing any worse than anybody else. Also the space and distance away from London, has given me a perspective on my life and career that I never had before. I have built myself a base career, something that can earn me money when the acting is a bit slow. Which is really important. I have also become quite savvy about the business, I'm glad I haven't just signed with the first agent that came along...it's not worth it...truth is you either have a good agent or no agent at all. There is no point in having a middle of the road agent, they will hold you back. I have built up experince in both acting and teaching, that I'm not sure I would have got in London, and I have grounded myself.
There is a lot I want to do now. When I do move back, and most of it is my own work. Stuff I can be control of. I even think I have a slight plan, as to how to start moving with it. This time at home has been really worthwhile, and in truth, I haven't missed out on that much at all in London. And maybe I should stop imagining that everybody is doing better than I am, it's not the case.
Taa Rah.
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