I had one of those moments today, when you see yourself through somebody else's eyes. The eek moment, when you think, 'God is that how people see me?'. Sometimes when I don't feel comfortable with people, my defence mechanism is to stay quiet and fade in to the back ground. But I had a thought today what happens if this is how people really view me, as insignificant, easily forgettable, that girl..".oo what's her name". It's scary, and I know to a lot of people I am far more important than that, but still every now and then, that thought registers. Usually when I have been rejected, either as a friend, girlfriend, actor...whatever. and then I feel guilty, how many people have I rejected, written off, or simply forgotten purely cos I had failed to register them. I only have to go down my list of friends on facebook, to know how many people I have failed to actively remember. I'd like to say sorry, to all those people. Everybody is interesting and has something to offer in their own significant way. and I hope I am not just 'that girl' in too many people's eyes.
Kel.
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