I am currently doing what can only be described as actors research...In that I spend my entire working life pretending to be someone that I am not. When I get to the Pub I take on this weird personality, which I'm not actively trying to be it just comes out. I worked out at university that if I can't say what I think I have nothing to say...this was okay at university because I was around people who understood me, and who were intelligent enough to realise when I was joking or being quirky. Which for me is most of the time. But at the Pub this is not the case, Possibly it is my fault for not coming out of my shell more, but I think I have quite a good radar for spotting people whom I can be myself around, and those that I simply can not. At the Pub I adopt a personality that is a) a lot simpler than I really am, b) a lot more boring than I really am and c) a lot less opinionated than I am really am. Infact what I am at the pub is someone who wants to be invisible, ignored and probably more truthfully doesn't want to be there. Someone asked me the other day, if this was my only job " God NO" I wanted to say. But I had to be somewhat respectful of the people for whom this was their only Job. (It is not my only Job, I also run workshops for primary school children, but this is by the by). Anywho I have decided to think of it as acting research, we do get all sorts in there, customers and Staff alike, and in a way it is interesting to be around them. I could never live the way they do, but most of them seem happy, and as long as they leave me alone to get on with my robot like work, I will carry on being this stupid, placid uninteresting person. Who knows it might even come in useful one day.
On the money front, I still haven't been paid for the corporate acting work I did over a month ago now. Apparently it's my fault for giving my invoice in late. I would just like to point out that I did not know that I had to do an invoice till she asked where mine was. I'm not psychic, it was my first job ( which she knew) she should have told me. Anyway, it means I can't make my next loan repayment. Also my job at the pub paid me significantly less than what I was expecting. So I am currently being royally fucked from all angles at them moment.
Yes anyway, as I have already mentioned above I have a new job doing drama workshops for primary school children. It's hard work but far more interesting than the pub, plus it gives me a chance to be a bit bossy, which is nice because it gets some of my aggression out. Plus I quite enjoy planning the sessions.
Also, I am about to start learning my lines for Macbeth, so there is some proper acting to get my teeth into. Woohoo. And I have decided to pay for CCP monthly, I was suffering from withdrawal symptoms, plus it means that the Corporate acting work can't annoy any more than they already have. Because I wanted the money that they were meant to pay me for the yearly subscription, but whatever.
I also need to book a train ticket down to Brighton, I need to do it soon before the fares go up. I might have to ask the parentage for that one.
Anywho that is it me for now!! Here's a link to Time to Pretend enjoy!
http://youtu.be/B9dSYgd5Elk
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