A lift

Things are looking and feeling better. These last few days I have been feeling a lot more positive. I have begun to feel free, for the first time in a long time. I think I'm learning how to be a young twenty something, that is back living in her home town. After living for the last four years at a hares pace, I am starting to learn how to live at a tortoises pace. I think the thing to do is embrace not having anything that important to do. I've never been able to do that before. I have always been worried about work that I have to get in. Or how the decisions I make now will affect my future. But now I kind of feel I have done all I can do in the training section of forging out a future career. From here on it's about making enough money to live on, so that I can be independent, and be able to have some form of a happy life. Whether this is doing what I really want to do, or not. It seems that this is what I will be doing anyway, so I may as well embrace it. I'm looking forward to being able to go out and just have fun, and not worry that I will be wasting a day being hung-over. Because to be fair, my job isn't all that taxing, I could probably do it asleep. So the idea of just being able to what I want when I want is quite nice. Plus I start rehearsals for the play that I am in, in a weeks time. So that has made me feel better as well. Any who, thought I would do a happy non-ranty post for once. I wanted not to mention the money situation, but I failed there any way it's all looking up!! hoorah!!