Caravan of Love

I have just finished watching a behind the scenes programme about the making of 'The Royle Family'. And it has reminded me of the type of actor that I would like to be. People often ask me what my goal is with the whole acting malarkey, and I always say something rather general like I'd just like to do good work. But if I had a real goal it would be to be in something like the 'The Royle Family'. That is what I want to do.

 I need to start formulating a plan for getting good work, and being in work that inspires me. I'm starting to get doubts about the whole thing, and less than a year out of drama school that is not very good. My car broke down this week which left me unable to get to one of my jobs, and apart from that being very annoying it also meant that I lost out on the money...eek. Not exactly good when you are as broke as I am. And this lead me to thinking about what I would do in the future if something happened that left me unable to work. Say I got ill, or I just couldn't travel or anything really...what is my fall back position? I have no real job security, the work I do at the moment is all dependant on me actually working those hours in order to get paid. It scared me. So I need a plan. And a good one.

I would really like to set up my own theatre company, maybe write, but mostly do really good work, with really good people. I don't want to compromise my dreams so early, but I'm starting to fear the uncertainty.

I hate that everything comes down to money. And I hate to keep going on about it. But it seems to me that you have to have money in order to make money, which is awkward to say the least.

Well anyway at least I have remembered the type of acting I like doing. Drama School as useful as it was, I feel kind of took me away from that, but I think I will make a start on creating my own work, at least it will give me a focus, and mean that I don't have to rely on other peoples work to give me what I am craving.

Thanks Craig Cash and Caroline Aherne.

See you later Alligator.