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Today I paid off my credit card. Hooray. It's taken me five months, but you know what it was worth it. I have found this quite often, that when I get to the point that I think I can't take anymore rubbish, something comes along and gives me a little lift. And today paying off my credit card was my lift. Also I have booked the hotel and train for a stay in London which is in aid of me, Sophie and Becca going flat searching. I got a really good deal as well. I'm glad it's all booked, it makes it seem real. and something tangible to look forward too. Brilliant.

When I am leaving somewhere, or I know that a big change is immanent, I kind of mentally checkout of where ever it is that I am, and move mentally to the next place. Maybe this is a self preservation thing, it's much easier to leave a place, if you don't want to be there. And the best way of not wanting to be somewhere is to want to be somewhere else. Therefore, when I actually take the next step, I'm simply going through the motions. But strange things make me freak out. A couple of weeks ago I totally freaked out at the thought of curtains. I thought if I get an unfurnished flat, there probably won't be curtains, or even a curtain rail. And I can't afford curtains or a curtain rail. Anyway how will I know how big to get the curtains, even if I did have the money....blah, blah, blah. None of this is a proper reason to get upset or annoyed, but I did. However to cut a long story short *excuse the pun* my mum has agreed to help. So curtains aside, I'm excited. and even a little proud of myself for paying off at least one of my debts. Yays.

I can't remember if I have posted this song before, but I Love Noah and the Whale, and this songs sums up this time in my life perfectly:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdPF4h9K0bs

Moore