Safety

I feel as though I have a lot to say, but have no idea how I want to express myself. I had a thought today about life that made things not necessarily clear, but that made sense to me about why certain things have become quite hard. Throughout life you are told that school is the greatest years of your life. I don't really agree with that statement, but I now what people mean. Because as you enter the world of work things that never even crept in to your mind in school days all of a sudden are abundant. Money, being the main one. But also things like friendship and the so called work/life balance become something of an importance. I personally feel that some of the best years of my life were spent at university, constantly around friends away from the parents and studying subjects that I am infinitely passionate about. But when that ended, there was no safety blanket. You are ripped away from your friends, everyone lives in different parts of the country, you end up taking jobs that you don't particularly want to do, but need to do them for the money, And when you do finally have some time to yourself, you find yourself wondering how did this happen? What am I doing with my life? Life is really hard and I am beginning to see the importance of lasting friendships and meaningful relationships, because you don't get a feeling of support and fulfilment from work, so you have to get it from somewhere. I haven't made any resolutions for this year, but if I were to set myself some goals it would be to satisfy my passions more, whether they be with people, art, acting or food. I need to concentrate on the things I like. Life is hard and relentless. And at the end of the day, if we're very lucky, we get old, I want to know that I lived my life meaningfully and not regret what I haven't done. I have spent the last few months trying to get me, my finances and my acting in order. It's now time to start living, to be independent and enjoy being human. Just because the world didn't give me a safety net doesn't mean to say I can't have a bungee rope attached to me. yeah I'll fall, but with a bit of force I'll bounce back up.

Adieu